yet again, another chapter to life.

Well, it’s obviously been a long time since I’ve taken a moment to write on what was supposed to be a therapy tool for me. But as one could guess, it’s been nothing less than a continuing rollercoaster. So much has changed; I wouldn’t’ want to bore you with the day to day details of it all. I will say though, that this chapter has brought about changes in me that I didn’t even think were possible. The minor changes have proven to be the ones that were important all along. Surprising to me, seeing as how I’ve been known to look only at the bigger picture leaving behind many important aspects that may need fine tuning. I’ve really come to find and understand myself more these past few months through personal reflection and reading. Some changes have demonstrated how hard self recognition can truly be. With the loss of a few “good friends”, I’ve come to realize who I want to truly hold close to my heart. At the very instant I begin to feel sorry for myself, I obtain the love and support needed from those who matter. I’ve been told by several that my personal battles have been found inspiring, which has only given me more drive to truly live. Although I am still far away from where I’d like to be, I remind myself that life is a marathon not a sprit. I’m living proof there’s light at the end of the tunnel, corny maybe, but so true. I’m finally GROWING UP. At times a very scary thought, but more than anything I’ve found comfort in it. Alcohol has slowly diminished as a therapy session and mere acquaintances have drifted away. Not to say that anyone is less important, but I’ve found great satisfaction focusing on relationships with those that deserve more time. Although I still find myself questioning if I’m worthy of the love I’m given, I know deep down it’s what keeps me kickin’.

The basics of these past few months may be minor, but for me, life changing…..

I’ve found a handsome boy whom I’d like to thank for allowing me to continue my journey without ignoring my past.

The most wonderful feeling in life is the feeling of true friendship.
The words of a good book have made me look deeper into the person I truly am, and the person I want to be.

got some friends who would be here fast, i could call em any time of day. got a [sister] who's got my back, got a mama who i swear's a saint. Lord know's i'm a lucky [wo]man